Sandy777
Nov 17th, 2011, 02:54 PM
This is a long one, you'll probably need a big cup of tea for it!
I am off sick at the moment, not feeling well. Pretty sure I have a vitamin deficiency, 99 per cent sure it's B12 (maybe others, not sure). Have been feeling unwell for about 2 weeks, and asked to be sent home last Tuesday- I'm going to back to work on Monday coming, but I haven't got the blood test results back yet. I went to the doc & told him what I thought it was & he was a bit off with me. I was really respectful and polite with him, but he knows what I'm like, I go to him usually knowing what is wrong with me and ask for a diagnosis and a sick note and usually refuse drugs except when I have to take them. He knows I always find herbs to take etc. He doesn't usually have a problem with that. I asked him for the MMA test and he'd never heard of it, pulled a big face and started checking his pc right in front of me and then said it wasn't verified to be any good etc. His tone was off - the chair I sat in was quite a distance away from him and he only came close to get blood from me. If he'd had checked my eyes ( I was so stressed I forgot to mention them) he would have seen there were at least signs of an infection, maybe more clues to other stuff. He knows what I'm like, that I'm a wheat free (for a few months) vegan (nearly 5 years and before that vegetarian for years) and also high raw since Nov 2008, (but more cooked on and off for several months now). He always confused vegetarians with vegans - he's not up to date with stuff I feel and he even slagged himself off for not knowing about the MMA test before he dismissed it as crap, and I detected a tiny bit of smuggery. In his favour though, he did always mention B12 and it's importance, and that's where I seem to have fallen down lately. I was drinking loads of soya milk quite happily in my tea for nearly 4 years but then gave it up 'cos I heard it was unhealthy (on reflection I might have fallen for a bit of propaganda there, not sure) - If I'm going to take phyto-oestragens from plants I'd rather get them elsewhere. I've just started taking Maca. Anyway I'm not really into heavily processed food if I can help it. It didn't even occur to me that now I'd stopped the soya milk I was getting virtually no b12 supplements, didn't cross my mind. I take various superfoods but lately sporadically, and am usually fairly careful with my health, It's just lately my attention was elsewhere.
I've been having bad stress symptoms, my adrenals feel a bit shot, I've had mood swings and my system feels weak and a bit ragg'd. I've been a little gibberish and bursting into tears for the last few days in work when telling colleagues in my team the way I've been feeling. I think this could be partly due to maybe a vit deficiency, (I keep thinking B12 or other B's again - pains and tingling up and down the hands and feet and numbness etc) and also my hormones I think, I'm just turned 50 and have been told I'm menopausal (Doc deduced that, he didn't test me). When I saw him there on Monday he dismissed all of my stress symptoms as menopausal, I don't think that's the sole reason. I think there may be a physical thing wrong with me and it's being exacerbated by hormones. I've had some stress in the family a wee while ago (we've 2 family members with cancer) so I think that has played a part. I expected some kind of reassurance from him to stop me panicking (I thought I may have damaged my nerves), but after staring at him incredulously for a few seconds I walked out of there feeling like I looked like a stupid idiot self-opinionated bonehead vegan! AArgh! (and as docs are private here in Jersey that 'consultation' cost me £34) My head is usually very together about stuff. I was telling all this to my good pal and colleague in work and she said she's sorry but she feels that I'm not doing it all properly and she doubts that my diet is safe (she doesn't agree with the raw food thing) . My other best friend also questioned my vegan diet yesterday, and when I was asking my manager to let me go home she intimated that I should be thinking about getting HRT - ****'* sake! I know that if I'm right about the vit defic and that's the reason I'm in this state it's no-one's fault but my own but I'm dreading the I told you so's and so much for Sandy's diet! etc. I feel there's a lot of flack coming my way and it's adding to my stress. I wish I'd never even ******* told anyone about my eating habits but that's not the easiest of things when you work in an office and are in close confines with folk, they see me with wierd super food smoothies and I eat salad every day for lunch. They'd all just love it if I walked in to work saying I was wrong whilst munching on a sausage buttie!. No disrespect to my doc (I'm changing to a more open-minded one soon) but now I'm 50 I think he's just going to write everything emotional off as menopausal.
I'm back to work this Monday and will be collecting a sick note at lunchtime. I don't even know what the doc's going to write on it re: my reason for being off work. In a way I feel it doesn't matter what the reason is for work - I'm worried that anything is going to be looked at as my own fault (which it is) for following a wacky diet (no it's not!) and even worse for not doing it properly. Maybe I should put my hands in the air and just say - yes it was my fault I slipped up on my B12 but really, it really is the best diet. I feel like I'm always trying to convince people lately and prove things to folk, I shouldn't care so much about what people think.
Phew! Now that's off my chest I'd like to deeply thank any of you that read this. I wonder If any of you have similar experiences of feeling like a numpty for slipping up on things and then getting sick, and also feebly trying to fight your corner when no-one takes you seriously. Does anyone have any advice on what I can say to folk? By the way, I'm never going to get into this predicament again, I've started on some superfoods already, B12 tabs, cut down on alcohol ( I wasn't drinking loads), I'm doing EFT regularly, wearing quantum balance crystals as and when I need to and I'm going to bump up the raw and teaching myself Quantum Touch to add another dimesion to the Laying On Of Hands that I do. Might learn Tai Chi also. Got my little tool kit and I'm gonna get cracking !
Thanks for listening and Fluffy Huggy Kitten-Nosed Blessings to you All. San x
I am off sick at the moment, not feeling well. Pretty sure I have a vitamin deficiency, 99 per cent sure it's B12 (maybe others, not sure). Have been feeling unwell for about 2 weeks, and asked to be sent home last Tuesday- I'm going to back to work on Monday coming, but I haven't got the blood test results back yet. I went to the doc & told him what I thought it was & he was a bit off with me. I was really respectful and polite with him, but he knows what I'm like, I go to him usually knowing what is wrong with me and ask for a diagnosis and a sick note and usually refuse drugs except when I have to take them. He knows I always find herbs to take etc. He doesn't usually have a problem with that. I asked him for the MMA test and he'd never heard of it, pulled a big face and started checking his pc right in front of me and then said it wasn't verified to be any good etc. His tone was off - the chair I sat in was quite a distance away from him and he only came close to get blood from me. If he'd had checked my eyes ( I was so stressed I forgot to mention them) he would have seen there were at least signs of an infection, maybe more clues to other stuff. He knows what I'm like, that I'm a wheat free (for a few months) vegan (nearly 5 years and before that vegetarian for years) and also high raw since Nov 2008, (but more cooked on and off for several months now). He always confused vegetarians with vegans - he's not up to date with stuff I feel and he even slagged himself off for not knowing about the MMA test before he dismissed it as crap, and I detected a tiny bit of smuggery. In his favour though, he did always mention B12 and it's importance, and that's where I seem to have fallen down lately. I was drinking loads of soya milk quite happily in my tea for nearly 4 years but then gave it up 'cos I heard it was unhealthy (on reflection I might have fallen for a bit of propaganda there, not sure) - If I'm going to take phyto-oestragens from plants I'd rather get them elsewhere. I've just started taking Maca. Anyway I'm not really into heavily processed food if I can help it. It didn't even occur to me that now I'd stopped the soya milk I was getting virtually no b12 supplements, didn't cross my mind. I take various superfoods but lately sporadically, and am usually fairly careful with my health, It's just lately my attention was elsewhere.
I've been having bad stress symptoms, my adrenals feel a bit shot, I've had mood swings and my system feels weak and a bit ragg'd. I've been a little gibberish and bursting into tears for the last few days in work when telling colleagues in my team the way I've been feeling. I think this could be partly due to maybe a vit deficiency, (I keep thinking B12 or other B's again - pains and tingling up and down the hands and feet and numbness etc) and also my hormones I think, I'm just turned 50 and have been told I'm menopausal (Doc deduced that, he didn't test me). When I saw him there on Monday he dismissed all of my stress symptoms as menopausal, I don't think that's the sole reason. I think there may be a physical thing wrong with me and it's being exacerbated by hormones. I've had some stress in the family a wee while ago (we've 2 family members with cancer) so I think that has played a part. I expected some kind of reassurance from him to stop me panicking (I thought I may have damaged my nerves), but after staring at him incredulously for a few seconds I walked out of there feeling like I looked like a stupid idiot self-opinionated bonehead vegan! AArgh! (and as docs are private here in Jersey that 'consultation' cost me £34) My head is usually very together about stuff. I was telling all this to my good pal and colleague in work and she said she's sorry but she feels that I'm not doing it all properly and she doubts that my diet is safe (she doesn't agree with the raw food thing) . My other best friend also questioned my vegan diet yesterday, and when I was asking my manager to let me go home she intimated that I should be thinking about getting HRT - ****'* sake! I know that if I'm right about the vit defic and that's the reason I'm in this state it's no-one's fault but my own but I'm dreading the I told you so's and so much for Sandy's diet! etc. I feel there's a lot of flack coming my way and it's adding to my stress. I wish I'd never even ******* told anyone about my eating habits but that's not the easiest of things when you work in an office and are in close confines with folk, they see me with wierd super food smoothies and I eat salad every day for lunch. They'd all just love it if I walked in to work saying I was wrong whilst munching on a sausage buttie!. No disrespect to my doc (I'm changing to a more open-minded one soon) but now I'm 50 I think he's just going to write everything emotional off as menopausal.
I'm back to work this Monday and will be collecting a sick note at lunchtime. I don't even know what the doc's going to write on it re: my reason for being off work. In a way I feel it doesn't matter what the reason is for work - I'm worried that anything is going to be looked at as my own fault (which it is) for following a wacky diet (no it's not!) and even worse for not doing it properly. Maybe I should put my hands in the air and just say - yes it was my fault I slipped up on my B12 but really, it really is the best diet. I feel like I'm always trying to convince people lately and prove things to folk, I shouldn't care so much about what people think.
Phew! Now that's off my chest I'd like to deeply thank any of you that read this. I wonder If any of you have similar experiences of feeling like a numpty for slipping up on things and then getting sick, and also feebly trying to fight your corner when no-one takes you seriously. Does anyone have any advice on what I can say to folk? By the way, I'm never going to get into this predicament again, I've started on some superfoods already, B12 tabs, cut down on alcohol ( I wasn't drinking loads), I'm doing EFT regularly, wearing quantum balance crystals as and when I need to and I'm going to bump up the raw and teaching myself Quantum Touch to add another dimesion to the Laying On Of Hands that I do. Might learn Tai Chi also. Got my little tool kit and I'm gonna get cracking !
Thanks for listening and Fluffy Huggy Kitten-Nosed Blessings to you All. San x