i too have a bit of an addictive personality. i was a giant pot head in high school and slowed down a bit in college (anyone who says that pot isn't addictive should meet my soon to be ex-husband and his idiot friends).
beer has always been my love! i used to drink, literally everyday, except if i had a hangover. it was a form of self medication because i also
suffer(ed) from clinical depression and massive anxiety. in the last six months i have cut back dramatically, for me. i drink 3 or 4 days a week and it is something i consciously have to do. i feel so much more in control. i actually choose my drinking days. my friends don't help so much when they call and want to go to the bar. i have learned to say no- they are all aware of my non-drinking plans.
i am never going to stop drinking beer. i now have the power over it. i used to be such a lush that i went to AA for five days in a row. i felt like a lightweight! i live in a somewhat impoverished area and the hardcore AA people were not only drunks but former druggies. the only people that weren't had to get a sheet signed at the end of each meeting which lead me to believe that they had DUI's. all that talk about a higher power kinda irritated me, so i left. i now manage as best i can. i am off antidepressants (they leave you dead inside) and have never felt better. i am enjoying a beer right now. it was one of my best friends birthday and she wanted to go to a fondue restaurant. i got a crappy $7 salad while everyone filled up on food. i filled up on beer.
i was just in the caymans and i feel so bad about the hurricane damage, such a beautiful place. when we were in a bus, the driver had a cayman radio talk show on and the people there seemed highly religious. do the locals drink??
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