I never really mentioned that I smoked on here before (surprise!). But anyway, somedays I want to quit and somedays I do not. I normally smoke about half a pack a day, sometimes more, sometimes less. Some days I can chain smoke 2, 3, 4, 5 cigarettes in a row if I'm having a cup of tea/coffee and chatting with friend(s). Since Sunday I've only had 5 or 6 cigarettes. But I have the flu or cold or something, so that's why. But I'm feeling better today, just a little congested, and I'm back to wanting to smoke a lot again.
I buy my cigarettes in cartons, so I have two and half packs left plus a multitude of half smoken cigarettes lying around. I keep telling myself, "Once I'm done of this carton, I'll quit for good." But I always end up buying more the second I run out. Not really good.
I'm sort of disillusioned by all the negative health affects. I haven't really experienced any. I'm not phlegm-y at all. I don't hack up things in the morning. When I exercise, I lose my breath eventually but just like a normal, non-smoking, sorta out of shape person. My teeth or fingers aren't yellow. My skin is still very nice. I may not have a lot of money but I don't have very many expenses, so buying smokes isn't breaking my bank (therefore I don't feel like smoking is wasting my money). Maybe it's just because I'm young.
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